HOT MESS: a fangirl lyric vid, with weirdness & nudity

An unofficial fangirl lyric video/performance piece for Chance Jones.

Rainy Day Piece No. 1 - "Wrapped and Tied"

Self-explanatory video of a short fetish photoshoot, shot on a rainy day.

Rainy Day Piece No. 2 - Fading ("Trapped" is a State of Mind)

A body-painting/green screen performance shot on the same rainy weekend.

Rainy Day Piece No. 3 - Beaver Loop

A very short piece emulating the beaver loops of yesteryear, shot on the same rainy weekend.

TL Playdate No. 288

A moody rumination on the 288th consecutive playdate I've shared with a particular partner.

Easter Morning
A piece capturing the feels of spring--mainly, what it's like to stay in bed and fuck like bunny rabbits.


“i am a precious metal, and you are?” - the metal trilogy
three adult experimental performance pieces revolving around gold, silver, and bronze, and their various connotations.

“golden showers”
A different take on an "adult" theme. A girl takes a "golden shower," not with urine, but with bottles of gold paint as she's bathed in colorful imagery.  It's an experimental, slightly punk, slightly avant garde, super-soft-core performance art piece thrown together over the course of two rainy days, and it's not meant to be taken seriously. 
[music by the incredibly talented, absolutely wonderful marilyn roxie: marilynroxie.com]

“mulveyandme: reflections on the lack of my objectification on the silver screen”
14 years in and out of various film schools, and only two things remain a certainty: 1) I will read Laura Mulvey’s “Visual Pleasure and Narrative Cinema” at least once a semester, and 2) I am nowhere near closer to being a working actress.  I find myself actively confronted with what seems to be a permanent ideological conflict: how can I be angry about the objectification of women on the silver screen if it’s all I’ve ever wanted for myself?

[link coming soon]

“bronze goddess”
An attempt at creating a reverent, sincere self-portrait, minus the sarcasm, contempt, and deliberate sabotage that goes into my other work.  The only irony here is that bronze is not a precious metal, it’s an alloy, a derivative, a mix, and these themes of inauthenticity and identity are explored in this piece.  After all, what’s a bronze goddess if not a false idol?
[link coming soon]


NSFW (2013)

A 10 minute direct address to my then partner, a workaholic whose career, though essential for our financial survival as a couple, was a key component in breaking up the relationship.

[*explicit pornographic content, not available online]


A short video love letter to my lover at the time (the third party in my relationship with my fiancé).  The video more or less told him our relationship was doomed.

[*explicit pornographic content, not available online]


My favorite piece among my early work, which examined my relationship with myself, my body, my history, and my sexual partners.  It's bitter, dark, and still possibly the best thing I've ever done.

[*explicit pornographic content, not available online (contact for screening copy)]